oh hello, i didn't see you there. it's been a while. how have you been? yeah, that's right, i finally escaped from los angeles, i've been in montréal for a few months.

life in montréal? so far it's been full of joy, sadness, dancing, drugs, dogs, confusion, activism, realization, porn, acab graffiti, queerness, and loss. oh, and a guitar... her name is ANTIFA AUDREY (it would make sense if you saw her). i've even made new friends that aren't guitars! and i turned 40, which i'm sure represents something as far as beginnings, endings, and change.

mostly just happy i still have my hair.

does it feel incredibly freeing to have escaped from america? absolutely. is life still just as baffling as ever? you betcha. but if one truth still remains and forever will... it's that diving headfirst into fiction solves everything.

i planned on writing about some STAR TREKS too, but let's just get the SENSE8 thoughts out of the way since... it's august 8th! happy birthday to our favorite cluster.

SENSE8

it is genuinely impossible to describe how much this show means to me, or how much i love each and every one of the characters in it. well, except for whispers.

with the netflix password crackdowns in effect, i started SENSE8 one "last" time using my friend's account that i've been sharing for the last few years... and quickly realized ah, what the fuck, and just stole the whole damn series so i'll have it forever.

they'd easily have my money if the show came out on physical media, but netflix made their bed and they can shit in it. looking forward to stealing all their future content.

i also started this rewatch as american pride month began and ended it just as pride month started in montréal, in a bit of coincidence that felt absolutely perfect.

this time i wanted to really take in every moment of the series, i wanted to absorb the sensates into my frakking soul -- i watched with subtitles so i wouldn't miss a word, and i let the credits play out after every episode. and to my shock there are some fucking incredible pieces of music from klimek/tykwer that play during the end credits, music that doesn't appear anywhere else in the series and that (of course, it's netflix) has never been released anywhere. i genuinely want to extract every one of those pieces from the episode credits and create/share my own SENSE8 soundtrack with the world.

this cast, the characters, their stories, the most beautiful and emotional and cathartic moments ever committed to film... again, i'm struggling for words. this show means everything to me. i feel seen, i feel understood, i finally feel not alone in my perspective of how the world should be and how we should treat each other.

looking at the body of work created by the wachowskis, it feels to me like CLOUD ATLAS, SENSE8, and THE MATRIX RESURRECTIONS form a sort of "love" trilogy, an unapologetically emotional and warm embrace of humanity and a hopeful message of how things could be if we would only allow it.

i absolutely adore that rajan has the last line of the series, and i adore the line itself.

"my god... i didn't think such things were possible."

2023.08.08